Book review: What I lost by Alexandra Ballard (3.5 Stars)

“You never see anything good about yourself.”

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What I lost by Alexandra Ballard

Genre: YA, Contemporary, Mental Health

Format: Hardcover

Rating: 3.5/5 Stars

(Review)

(DISCLAIMER: This review is based on my opinion only.)

Elizabeth has lost a lot of weight to get to a size 0, but she ended up with an eating disorder, anorexia. She goes to Wallingfield treatment centre to be cured, but she’s intending to restrict her diet once she finally gets out of the place. Elizabeth also believes that her mother, who has a size 0 obsession needs treatment too. Elizabeth starts receiving packages, possibly from her ex-boyfriend or even a secret admirer.

I personally couldn’t relate to having anorexia, but I do understand the pain of not being able to eat a lot, especially when my anxiety kicks in. And the peer pressure of people kinda forcing you to finish your food and make it seem that you’ve sinned against the entire world by not finishing the food on your plate. On most normal days I probably only eat 3/4 of a meal and with anxiety I even even lesser than that and urgh, I’ve had so many bad experiences with people forcing me to eat.

It’s clear that Elizabeth’s mother has an obsession with being a size 0 and it negatively affects Elizabeth. But her mother is good at masking it and her father is kinda of in denial of the entire thing. I was really upset since the main problem seemed to have stemmed from Elizabeth’s mother’s poor choice of words and actions.

I love that this book addresses sensitive issues and also the prejudices against eating disorders. It also straightforwardly brings the negative aspects of eating disorders to light.

I love that Elizabeth finds support in the people at the treatment centre and you can see throughout the entire book that she’s really trying. Also, I like that there is a subplot of the romance, but it doesn’t distract you from the main story. Elizabeth slowly overcomes her eating disorder, but not for a guy, she does it for herself and by herself. I really liked the character arc and story progression of this book.

Also, I really LOVED the use of Kelly Clarkson’s song, ‘Stronger’, because that song really helped me through a tough time as well!

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Book review: The problem with forever by Jennifer L. Armentrout (4 Stars)

“You’re safe, Mouse. And I know you might not believe it, but I’m going to keep you safe forever.”

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The problem with forever by Jennifer L. Armentrout

Genre: YA, Romance, Contemporary

Format: Hardcover

Rating: 4/5 Stars

(Review)

(DISCLAIMER: This review is based on my opinion only.)

Mallory grew up knowing the key to survival was not speaking. Four years after her nightmare ended, she is going from home schooled to spending her senior year in public high school. On the first day, she comes face to face with her first love and protector, Rider.

Immediately I could relate with Mallory, I’m painfully quiet, especially around guys and strangers. She also gets panic attacks, Mallory is a character after my own heart.

I did feel that Rider was leading Mallory on with his touches and meetings, but I did really ship them together. Urgh, I also didn’t understand why he was dating Paige.

I really liked the story progression and Mallory’s gradual progression of her character arc. This story really broke my heart, it was like Kami Garcia’s books combined with Brigid Kemmer’s! I really liked the message and Mallory as a character, it was one of the best character arcs I’ve ever seen.

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Book review: The Program (The program #1) by Suzanne Young (3 Stars)

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The Program (The program #1) by Suzanne Young

Genre: YA, Romance, Science Fiction-Dystopian

Format: Hardcover

Rating: 3/5 Stars

(Review)

(DISCLAIMER: This review is based on my opinion only.)

Now that suicide has become an international epidemic, Sloane hides her emotions to prevent going into The Program – where they mess with your mind and feed you pills to make you forget your depression. The only person Sloane feels safe with is James, her brother’s best friend and swore to protect her.

*Trigger warning for this book as it contains self-harm, suicide and depression.

I was definitely annoyed when suicide was mentioned as being contagious in this book. The protagonist also calls people who commit suicide cowards, which I was definitely not cool with because someone ever told me that before too. And those people are probably the ones who never understands what it feels to be depressed.

I did feel that it was poorly researched although there was a good intention behind this book, but dystopian was an unsuitable genre to tell this story. It kinda felt WAY too dark for a dystopian book. I actually wanted to DNF this book at chapter 4 early on in the story, but reading some reviews mentioned that the romance was not bad so I continued reading on.

I personally didn’t like James and Sloane’s relationship and it felt kinda pretend to me. I actually like Realm. The romance kinda reminded me of Shatter me.

I did feel that the story progression was pretty good and it set up for a good dystopian story as well. I think it was just that personally, I was uncomfortable that depression and suicide was being used for an epidemic. I wouldn’t continue the series, but I did read spoilers for the 2nd book so… Anyway, I wouldn’t really recommend this book, especially if you’re uncomfortable with the idea and with the triggers mentioned.

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Book review: Poor Unfortunate Soul (Villain #3) by Serena Valentino (Did not finish)

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Poor Unfortunate Soul (Villain #3) by Serena Valentino

Genre: YA, Fantasy

Format: Paperback

Rating: Did not finish

(Review)

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The POV of Ursula during the events of The Little Mermaid.

I went into this book thinking that it would be a great villain origin story, but I was sorely disappointed. As I continued on, I just wasn’t interested and the characters just felt really flat for me.

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Book review: Royally Lost by Angie Stanton (3 stars)

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Royally Lost by Angie Stanton

Genre: YA, Romance, Contemporary

Format: Paperback

Rating: 3/5 stars

(Review)

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Nikolai is the crown Prince of Mondovia, being upset at his lack of freedom, he runs away. Becca is stuck for a week on a boat cruise with her family. When their lives intersect, sparks fly.

The insta-love was kind of a big turn off for me for this book and the story did feel as though it was pretty rushed. I did feel that there was a good set up and pay off, but overall, the story did seem unrealistic and too fairy tale like.

I actually felt that Dylan was a pretty underrated character, I mean yeah, he was busy hooking up with girls, but he was also a big support to Becca when their dad didn’t seem to care much.

I also did feel that Nikolai’s parents caved in too easily although they were so strict throughout the entire book. This book was predictable and cliche, but I kinda liked Nikolai as a character. Overall, it wasn’t as bad as I expected it to be, but it wasn’t a very memorable book either.

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